(Ed. Note: Our Miss January Stefany Thode had some annoying weather-related technology challenges last month, so we’re extending her reign through one more Monday. Thanks to Stefany for wearing the crown in January, and come back next week to read the first post from Miss February, Fawn Rechkemmer.)
We did it. We made it through the month of worries and fears and we did it with only one real scare. Jemma proved to me, once again, how much of a fighter she is. She is my little hero.
So, what does that mean for me? That means I am going to stop stressing (so much) and start living again. I am going to start this year from NOW and move forward. I will embrace the things that happen and love them. Good, bad, or otherwise. Everything that happens in our lives is for a reason. I am going to start seeing those reasons as the blessings that they are.
Starting over on our year may sound silly but I am doing it. I spent January in a state of unrest. I didn’t see all the good that was happening around me. I have a the most amazing children. My son is the most kind and loving person and is showing on a daily basis how mature he is becoming. Joley pushes my limits daily but I see that she is strong-willed and will be a force to be reckoned with in the future. And Jemma… baby Jemma is not a baby. She is this little walking, talking, little person that is growing up before my eyes. I am going to start seeing her little spirit and welcoming the toddler coming out (as hard as that may be some days).
We are going to start living our lives with the past in the past; the future is before us and it is shining and bright. We are going to start loving what we are given, share what we can with others, and thank God daily for the fact that we have each other. My kids are my life. I live each day hoping to be the best mom I can be to them.
Starting today, I will make it my priority to show them what they mean to me. I thought I was doing a good job of this until I sat back and realized that I have been so crippled by fear that I didn’t really see what is in front of me. That all changes now.
Thanks for letting me visit over the past month. I hope my journey through this challenging and scary time gave you the insight into my life and I would love for you to come see me on ToBeThode too. Many blessings to you in this new year!